Counseling

Counseling, ok here is the thing. should I or should I not get counseling, and by who? I feel like sometimes I could go nuts with no one that I can really to to about things. I love the people that are in my life, but something is holding me back into not trusting them with what is REALLY going on in my heart and head. I think that it would be really a good thing to have someone in my life that I have to talk to and who has to talk and listen to me. This way I will not have to feel guilty for telling them the truth and pray that the Lord will soften my heart to be able to speak what is really going on! Lord be with me that I may know who would be the best person to go to, and provide the money that will be needed, if I have to pay for the extra help!