I use to see thing in daylight along with the scary nights. Once I remember that I could see a movie in the curtains of my room. When I closed my eye I saw it there too, I asked my mom to close the curtains and she thought that I was going crazy, but I could see this movie with my eyes open or closed.
I was so certain that the next-door neighbors were watching this movie and that I could see and hear their movie in my mind. It was like I had seen the movie before, for in parts of it I was a cast member.
The movie went something like this:
It was a Romeo and Juliet situation with a mafia twist. This mafia was made up of all types of people, Blacks, White, a few Asia’s and Hispanic. This mafia had one real, rule, that you can’t say the word “can’t”. It started out with a killing in a mafia member from a traitor inside the mafia. There was a gather of the mafia leaders and there families to decide who the traitor was. My character was not supposed to be there, for I was a member of the other mafia in town, but I was a viewer of all things that went along in this meeting. What happened was the main leader made the decision that they wives of the leader would be wise enough to make the decision of who was the traitor.
What they decided to do was to create a note book that had all the pictures of the men that were in the mafia, and they had a time limit to make the desicion of who was going to be left out of the book. For whoever picture was not in this book would be the traitor and would be on the hit list to be killed by the other members of the mafia. The main leaders wife was allowed to put her family and pictures in first and then it was a mad dash to see who would be able to put their family picture in first before the time limit expired.
It was a pretty mad dash to see who could get it in there was a lot of screaming and fighting, and debates. Then I looked over at this mom from one of the higher families in the mafia, and she was in a state of shock, for she realized that she was still holding on to the photo of her only son. She tired to push her way into the crowd but it was to late. She then hoped that no one would notice. So once the time expired the women along with the binder came back to the main meeting to meet all the men. The main leader then looked though the book and eminently recognized that this women son was not in the list. He then assumed that the women figured out that this boy was the traitor. The women tried to explain that it was a time thing, but she could not justify it to him.
That is when my character stepped in and said that he can’t do that, and that it was not fair. That is when the tides changed and everyone attention turned to me, for I had said that “bad” word “can’t”. Then the conversation continued and I kept on saying can’t, and they kept on getting madder and madder. My character was sitting down in a chair and was knitting. Once everyone started to stare at her she began to pull on the string to try to get out of the room, to run away.
That is when the nurse awakened me, for there I was sitting in my chair trying to get out, by pulling on my cords, and air pipes. She came in really nervous about me. That apparently my heart rate was increased and she became nervous that I was in trouble. And there I was trying to unplug my I.V.
However this is not the end of the story. Later that day I remember, more about the dream. However it was not I in the story anymore, I was just looking at the story like I was watching a movie. The boy that was on the list then falls in love for my character that is from the other mafia, very much like Romeo and Juliet. Where the marry in hops that the families will unit and that the boys life will be spared once he show evidence that he is not a traitor to his family.
This was a very intense dream, having the feeling that I was in trouble and that people where after me. I was so scared that the nurse had to come in and double check on me to make sure that I was doing fine and not having a stroke or something like that.
Here is the email that I my mom sent out to so friends and family about this day. She actually sent this out on the 8th, but it is an update of what happened this day:
“Dear Friends,
I wanted to pass on an update on Courtney. She’s still in the Critical Care Unit. She had a stable night last night. There has been a slight improvement in her pancreas, but her levels for her lungs have taken a turn for the worse. She’s on a breathing machine that is pumping oxygen into her lungs, but if her levels do not come down, or at least stabilize (they went up during the night and her chest x-ray was not good during the night) they will have to put her on a ventilator (which they really do not want to do). They will be doing another x-ray and draw blood at noon and make a decision about the ventilator. Yesterday they had to dropped her oxygen in take to 60%, but during the night they need to raise it again to 80%.
We so value your prayers on behalf of our dear daughter.
With love,
Colleen”
