Kids, do we kill them??

Kids and libraries should not mix!!! There I was minding my own business, and school must have gotten out, for all of a sudden I was surrounded by at least 10 kids, talking, doing homework, being on the computer, laughing, running, driving me crazy. Seriously they do not work!! If you are wanting a place to be quite and to study library's are not the place to do it. I am so glad that I brought my head phones, but still. When you can hear people though your headphones you have got a big problem. Oh, Lord HELP!! I am not wanting to be "old" or anything like that, but why are parents not teaching our kids on how to handle them selves in a public quite locations. Did I ever do things like that? I can't remember, but I can pray that I did not. I apologies for anytime that I did to those that I disturbed. I know that sometimes it can be a cool thing to do but boys are boy from they are little.

For example there were 5 boys at the table, and one girl, the boys were talking and playing and the girl was doing homework. I can tell you this now, that the girl will be having fun tonight, and the boys will have to finish there homework. Point for my sex!

My Thoughts

I have been thinking a lot about my life and what is or is not going to happen next. My life has this far seemed so stable. I always had a plan of what was going to happen next. Now that college is done and that I have not plans to go to grad school things seem really, really, really fuzzy. In my own fleshly heart I would have been married by now and having kids, this has not happened, so my mind goes what is going on?? I am 25 not married, not even dating, do not have a job, and it seems as though my plans are not looking so good. I know that the Lord is in charge of our live and His plans are so much better and greater than ours ever could be, but sometimes, it is really hard to trust and hope in His plans.

I have not been on a date in over 4 years. That seems like a really, really long time. It seems as though I have not had any opportunity either. I know that sounds really bad, and that I am going for a pity party, but is seem frustrating that I really want something and by my flesh I can't make is happen.

Sometimes I really question, if I was just a little bit skinner, or prettier or if I had better skin, or prayed harder, that I could get it to happen. People always say that when you are not looking for it, then it will happen. That does and don't make sense to me, for it makes sense that it can happen that way, but what if it is something that you have wanted for such a long time, how can you not want it to happen. It make me think that it will then never happen to me for I will always want it. How can you not want it to happen to you???

Oh, Lord HELP!!! Remind me that it is only though you that I have compeltion, and I want my faith increased the fact that if it never happens to me that you will still have something even better for me. That you are not done with me, and that you want the best for me, that marriage and kids might not be the best for me. Help me trust in you and your plans that you have for me. Be exalted in me, use me is eveything that I do that it my be pleaseing unto you. I do not want to do anything that is out ouf your will. I want to obey you with all that i am. I want only what is right and good coming from you. I know that if I obey you that they best will happen to me, you have made promsie in your Word testifing to this truth.

Lord you are so faithful with man, you are so gracious with us. I remember the children on Isreal, about how they would bake mistake after mistake and you would be so good to them. I remeber how they say your open the red sea and that they when across it on dry land, and then a couple of days/hours later where wanting to go back into slavery think that it would be so much better then with you. Lord help us man, remember the promises that you have given man, and that you will neve forsake us, that you do not only want the best for your people, and that all we have to do is trust is you and everthing will be great and blessed.

I LOVE YOU LORD, AND I LIFT MY HANDS TO WORSHIP YOU, OH MY SOUL REJOICE!!!